I Thought Accepting Christ Would Make Me Rich

A testimony about faith, formation, and learning what “seeking first the kingdom” really means.

When I first accepted the gospel of Christ, let me be honest - I did it because I thought I’d instantly get rich.

The plan was simple:
Confess Christ as my personal Lord and Savior.
Worship Him.
And then… boom. Provision on tap.

I know. I know. Don’t judge me yet.
That’s what I was told… or at least, that’s how I understood it.

“Accept Christ and you won’t lack anymore.”
“Abundance is your portion.”
“Seek first the kingdom of God and everything will be added unto you.”

Sounds solid, right?

Well… news flash.
It doesn’t work that way.
At least, not the way I imagined.

And if you imagined it like I did, congratulations, sweetheart, we were both wrong.

Because nobody really explained what “seeking first the kingdom of God” actually looked like to me then.

Omo.

I thought all I had to do was confess Christ and relax.

Nobody told me about being pressed like grapes to become new wine.
Nobody told me about midnight cries.
Nobody told me about faith that looks… foolish.

Like having nothing on you.
Nothing in your account.
But still craving suya with confidence.

I’d pray.
Beg God.
Still not get it that night.
Sleep hungry.

And then - plot twist - the Holy Spirit wakes me up at midnight to pray.

As how, nah?
After sleeping on an empty stomach.

Being a Christian, rent is due, and friends are casually saying,
“You have a beautiful body now… you can make this money.”

I remember being locked out of my hostel back in school because rent was due,
but still borrowing clothes… just to go to church.

Nobody told me how intense the refining of gold really is.
How much God would teach me faith, self-control, and what it truly means to hold on to Him.

Omo, I cried oh.
Premium tears.

At some point, I even asked God if my lineage offended heaven somehow;
because it felt like punishment.

But trust me to be stubbornly devoted.
It’s God or nothing. No matter what.

I told God, “Just show me that You still love me.”

He didn’t give me extra money to buy chicken and cook jollof rice.
Instead, the ice in my garri melted… and somehow turned into love (100% true, not fiction).

I opened my laptop.
First thing I saw?
A love emoji.

Cute. Touching.
But Lord… why can’t I just see an alert of ₦30 million?

My Father can do all things.
He promised to provide.

But then again… don’t babies face hardship when they’re growing?

They try to walk.
They fall.
They stand.
They fall again.

And no loving father stops a child from falling - because growth, strength, and maturity are formed right there.

Jesus Himself said it plainly:
“In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33

And Paul reminds us that strength is formed right inside weakness
(2 Corinthians 12:6–10).

Hebrews 12:5-17 even warns us not to trade our birthright for a single meal,
not to become like Esau, who gave up something eternal for something immediate.

So maybe seeking first the kingdom isn’t about skipping hardship.
Maybe it’s about learning who God is inside it.
About allowing Him to refine you into who He’s calling you to become.
About growing mature enough to carry the responsibility He wants to place in your hands.

Because this is where faith is formed.
This is where we learn to stay.

Choosing Him - again and again - no matter what.

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P.S. If you’re going through a tough season in your faith, please don’t walk through it alone.
Talk to someone: someone godly, maybe a trusted church leader or mentor of your gender.
Hold on to God. This season will pass.

And if you’re introverted, shy, or don’t feel ready to open up to people around you yet, you can DM me.
You can talk to me… or even scream if you need to.
Just give me a heads-up so I can grab my earbuds 😅

You’re not alone. 🤍

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My love is real 🤍
God’s love is deeper 💜

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Sincerely, I didn’t plan to share this. I just drafted it now, but I guess someone needs it, and I’m simply the messenger.

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